2002-11-11
Me on Public Displays of Affection
I've decided I'm going to stop drinking. This time, however, I'll make attainable goals for myself. Not ones that while making them I'll know there is now way in fucking hell I can actually achieve what I set out. So I will start with a week of being alcohol-free. I will also stop drinking before I got to a bar. I use to think this would save me money. But I actually still wind up buying the same amount of drinks in a bar. Only I stumble up to the bar more.
On Thursday I consumed....15 drinks. Which should be some kind of record for me. Not because I actually drank that many but because I am able to calculate how many drinks I had.
The highlight of the evening was when my friend made me sit down claiming I was going to be thrown out. I thought he was crazy. But I later learned I had fallen down four times.
Sitting beside me was a guy. And that's all I knew about him. I didn't know his name. I didn't know what he looked like besides the fact that he vaguely resembled a male out of the corner of my eye. I didn't know what his voice sounded like. I didn't know if he was with some one. So of course, the most rational thing I could do in this situation was to lean over and start making out with him. Who wouldn't? Lucky for my pride he didn't pull away.
For the past couple of days I've been quite shocked over my behaviour. I don't normally just start making out with COMPLETE strangers. At least, I thought I didn't. Today a person who has known me most of my life came over. I told her the story and added at the end, "It's just SOOOOOOOOOO out of my character." She disagreed and then began recounting other times I had done the same thing.
It was then, in horror, that I began to realize that my ANTI-PDA Philosophy, wasn't looking quite anti. So in order to put the ANTI back into PDA, I'm going to severly limit my alcohol intake and make some ANTI-PDA paraphinilla with the money I'll be saving just to reinforce my philosophy to others who may be thinking I'm a hypocrite.
Now playing: The Pride is Back by David Cross
popnoir at 10:04 p.m.